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Herald: Oh, oh, this is Whabl. I will start with an English introduction and
followed up with the German one. Welcome to the "Kate Sheppad turning in her
grave"- talk here at the Haecksen Stream during the next 20 minutes. The mother,
musician and geek catalyst will take we talk about sexism in the professional and
personal life in the 21st century. During the talks, she will mentioned violence and
pornography, but without any expert images. After the talk, you can join us in
the Q&A, which is hosted on the Big Blue button. Herzlich Willkommen zum nächsten
Talk "Kate Shepard must be turning in her grave". In den nächsten 20 Minuten die
Mutter, Musikerin und Katalyst wird über Sexism im professionellen und persönlichem
Leben, Gewalt, Pornographie sprechen im 21. Jahrhundert. Während des Talks wird
Gewalt und Pornografie erwähnt, ohne expliziten Bildern. Nach dem Talk seid ihr
herrzlich eingeladen zu Q&A der Haecksen zu BigBlueButton zu kommen. Viel Spaß!
*Eine Frau Spricht.* Kate Shepard must be turning in her grave. aNixon, sponsoring
incidents in which our music isn't on our list was sexist, Muslim, 5.10, wolfish
Mumford does. I don't want to see one that's even just talk, said Gabbidon.
Pornography, having skipped over a kind of explicit bidder. That's him. Talk. Angela
Consumption and Hexham Big Two weapons Pierce Parsons. Kate Sheppard would be
turning in her grave. This is the presentation by me. In October of this
year at the ripe age of forty four, I started to study IT. I am going to become
a Fachinformatikerin, specializing in system administration or, as the Germans
call it, physi. It's a big deal for me because I haven't got any completed
qualifications yet exit from my university entrance. I was ineligible to become a
baker, but I'm really glad that I took a leap and started learning IT instead. I
was privileged enough to get a Bildungsgutschein. I had to go to
Amazon.com over the summer and do German and math and logic tests, which were good
enough to convince that I can tour to let me do the course. And because of corona,
it's entirely online. I don't even have to leave the house to get an education. It's
just perfect right now. I feel so privileged. First of all, to be able to
retrain as an older student as it is. But secondly, I don't have to go out into the
world every day in the middle of a pandemic. It's perfect! So I had zero
strategy or even a proper strong will about learning when I was 18 and went to
university during my uncompleted music studies. I took a 101 introduction to
computer science, but it was clear after the first two lectures that I should have
taken the one or two instead, which was the basic course for the actual degree
path. I was this close. But although we were shown the basic hardware after that,
this is five months of Microsoft Office, sadly. And by the time I realized I was
two behind on the material to be able to switch to the other course, but I always
had an interest in computers. The first from figuring out how I could use my dad's
old work dos work computer as a word processor, copying basic programs out of a
book onto a C64, or nervously trying out the single Apple computer at the tiny two
classroom country school I went to. I come from New Zealand, which is famous for
being actually paradise. I get asked about once a week. What are you doing here?
These days, I like to answer. I really like corona. Yeah, that's not a lot going
on in New Zealand, though, is a bit too finite for my personal tastes. I did this
weird mess when I left, which was based upon increasing the amount of possible
things that could happen to me. I mean, how could I resist? But the challenges of
concentrated, detailed learning and my middle age, I feel it's necessary and very
helpful to call on some girl bosses and strong role models. I have a very daunting
mission ahead of me, and I don't have time for doubt or distraction, especially with
its five year old kid to care for as well. Will tell me that I look fat at the drop
of a hat. There are some amazing women who have come out of New Zealand, for example,
on the left, you have Jane Batten, who made long-distance solo airplane journeys.
And on the right, this incredible woman as Nancy White, who was a New Zealander, a
nurse and a journalist who went joined the French Foreign Legion in World War Two.
She got the codename the White Mouse, and she once killed an SS officer with her
bare hands. She had a five million franc price on her head and was the most
decorated allied woman of World War Two. And this is Kate shippers who wasn't
actually born in New Zealand, she was born in the UK, but her work is credited with
being the catalyst for New Zealand being the first country on the entire planet to
give women the vote in 1893, who work also had a profound influence on other
countries, also making this improvement. Here she is featured currently on New
Zealand's $10 bill and this is my great great grandmother, Jemima. Born in New
Zealand in 1860, and she was one of the first woman in the world who was able to
vote. There's another hero who appeared like a headmistress, the kind of angel to
me and my youth. Helen Clark delivered a fiery speech at my school final assembly.
She was the second ever serving prime minister of New Zealand, but the first one
who is actually a less elected to the post and the first one who is actually nice. At
the time she spoke at my school, she'd already been deputy prime minister for a
few years and would go on later very soon to become New Zealand's first elected
female prime minister. Helen recently only narrowly missed out on becoming secretary
general of the United Nations. Yeah, Jacinta gets a lot of credit, but yeah,
Helen was there before. She told us in the speech that most of us would end up going
overseas and that when we did that, we should be the best possible ambassadors
for our little country that we could possibly be. A friend of mine told me
snappily several years later that in fact, we should be telling the world that New
Zealand is full of drug addicts and prostitutes so that people stop going
there for the holidays all the time. So it's actually rife with homelessness,
crime and meth. So maybe go check out Australia instead. But her speech and
still a curiosity and me and I thought, Well, I want to be one of the ones that
goes. So coming alone from this more experimental nation in 2000, the birth of
the 20th century. As far as my feet can take me to the airport, to the beast that
is Europe, I was ready for my eyes and all of my senses to be open wide to this
incredible continent. That was a source of philosophy and ideas and science and
developments. But it seems to be a bit preoccupied with itself trying to decide
if people with darker skin were actually humans as well, let alone the fact that
you can't get a decent coffee until about 10 a.m. in the morning, which is worth.
Which is worth a 20 minute talk in itself. There's definitely some issues that come
from being a cumbersome burdens dinosaur of a nation. 20 years later and somehow we
have a universe with fax machine, fax machines and toxic Telegram groups exist
at the same point in time. It's certainly a sharp contrast to the tiny, fast moving,
tricky, isolated remote little island in the South Pacific that I herald from. So
as I mentioned, New Zealand owes status as the first country to give women the vote
and a great part to the work of the suffragette Kate Sheppard. And I think
that had a lot to do with the fact that it was a small country with a tiny
population, and that's just simply makes it easier to change things. It was also
fueled heavily by the wishes of woman's prohibit alcohol, which invariably comes
with violence, which is rife in a colony of much less penetrant social pressures,
much more isolation and dodgy home brew than in their homelands. You didn't have
to convince and convert so many people in New Zealand as you had to in Germany. And
in addition to that, you also didn't have to change so many laws because there
weren't that many laws. Germany always feels to me like this big, friendly but
cumbersome bureaucratic dinosaur. But in the late eighteen hundreds in New Zealand,
white people only been there for about 50 years. So I think this enables the whole
process to be streamlined. Opponents labeled the movement as a leap in the
dark, but in reality it was a giant leap into the light. Germany wasn't that far
behind at this stage. Women had the vote here by 1919 and directly at the same
time. Women were also able to be elected to office, which is fantastic. And
obviously some things happened after that, which slowed the whole thing down a bit.
But something I keep hearing again since I've been living in this country is, oh
yeah. But in the 70s, it was still the law here that women weren't allowed to have
their own bank accounts without their husbands signing off on it. So look how
well we've done considering there, but this feels to me like an excuse. This is
50 years ago now, and there's been plenty of time to accelerate this stuff, to kick
up some kind of quantum feminism to make up for lost cars. If only Germany put as
much energy into equality as it did and to building car engines. So despite these
excuses, despite hearing repeatedly from friends of mine who were living more
mainstream lives than me, that this glass ceiling is dare to be put out by us from
underneath so that mostly men can look down through it with a nice, clear view.
Regardless of knowing all of this in my brain, I was still pretty shocked when I
started studying IT in 2021 to find out whether I was on a course with only one
other woman and with twenty five guys, especially them with an almost too long in
particular that there will be a higher percentage of woman. It would be really
nice if Germany could speed it up just a little bit and the equality area, because
this is a field where a lot more women should be and it's so interesting, so
broad. When you look at on paper, there is no reason why it should be a male
dominated industry. It's not a physically demanding job, and the fact that you can
work from home makes it perfect. For example, single parents, women with
younger children who want to be home when they expect from school, like I do. I just
think there's so much more potential than just being a digital sausage fest. I
really think this country has got enough sausages. I do also realize that I can
only see this from my particular perspective, for my particular experiences
and my individual blundering romp through this world and probably the IT profession
in New Zealand is just as behind. No shade, everyone. But I'm just wondering
how come it's not better than it is? I keep getting told how brave I am for doing
this, which feels infuriating. It doesn't feel like it should be brave. It feels
like it should be really normal to do what I'm doing, but instead a sincere take a
big heaving pair of virtual balls to drive dove into an industry that women have been
successful in since the beginning. I'm pretty much starting from scratch and it's
overwhelming and it's so much. I've worked a office job for about 40 hours a week,
learning from home on Zoom the entire time. Something quite different. So I will
see how this progresses, and I just relish the determination that I feel at the
moment, and I hope that I can sustain it for the next 19 months. And I mean, I'm
late to the party no matter what happens. But hey, season three of last. Some of the
best characters hadn't even shown up yet. So for now, I'm trying to study every day,
at least a little bit after class and in the weekends, and I'm sure so short,
overwhelmed with so much information right now that I hope that as long as I
consistently keep putting more time than I'm required to, I'll be OK. Regardless of
how much English there is in IT, it is still a massive challenge to study in a
foreign language. I try and Ubertreibe das. Just a little bit all the time and
read another few pages, look at a few YouTube videos or listen to a podcast. It
is complicated somewhat by the fact that the proofing system has just been
dramatically overhauled by the car instead of a MultiChoice exam for this
zwischenprüfung. Apparently, it's now more similar to how the end exams used to be,
and nobody has even set a final exam in this new structure yet. It's pretty
terrifying. Our tests in between seem to be creepily easy considering what is
coming. But all I do, I just figure in my situation, my job didn't fire what I need
to know. And if I can do that, I'm halfway there. I feel like I'm collecting
knowledge on a big scale and I know there is more to come. So I'm trying to get the
basics down as firmly as I can, which includes figuring out a way to be clear
and the stingless universe that I mean villain or faulen. Am I talking Denglish
or am I talking, gentlemen? So Phil, I just confuses me constantly because I
don't don't even know what I'm supposed to be saying. But a classmate of mine made a
good call to sign it and then on an abbreviated form every time to avoid
confusion. So I'm just going to go with that. So I've dropped a few of my habits
to make space to study. I don't play drums as much as I was before. I stopped writing
songs for now, but I've started jogging in the mornings and I still play bass guitar
in a punk band in Nepal on the weekends. But corona is just the best time to be
studying because I'm missing out on nothing. I can stay home most of the
weekend and just alternate cleaning and cooking and learning all the time. My
mental health is also a huge priority for me, especially with COVID staying
positive. And when these little nagging thoughts come up, just be like, I don't
have time for this now. Maybe another time, but it's the little things that make
the difference in the end, and my body's just as important as my mind. I need to
stay primed for exponential knowledge and take and to not take the teenager's bad
moods personally. I want to say a little something about social media because it
has been on my mind. I don't like being confronted with any sexual content when
I'm trying to learn. I don't want to see it jiggling bottom when I'm trying to
digest my abendbrot. But it's jarring just because of its appropriateness, let alone
the content itself. There was some really dodgy stuff in a WhatsApp group. I wanted
to say something, but it's really not easy to do. I sort of thought about it and
almost decided to just leave the group rather than to mention it. I was really
grateful when somebody said something about it. Shout out Fan 2021, your jam.
And since then, it's been noticeably a lot better. But so here and there, some on the
border stuff gets shared. I mean, my social media contact with the people in my
class is to further my knowledge, to and unterstützt my learning process not to
look at bums. I do not want to be confronted with reproductive biology when
I'm just checking the time. Maybe, maybe I should start posting a recipe every time
somebody posted something. Or maybe like I should say something about every single
time I should write. But it's so hard. I don't want to be the one coming in and
saying, blah blah blah. I don't care. I'm not only a woman, I'm also old, so I'm
really trying to not send off this grandma vibes. I don't want to be the camp mother.
I want to be right there in the thick of the scrum. I've got a thick skin, and I
realize that not every woman is confident enough to travel the world with no money
to make bands and found clubs and magazines that survive a divorce without
getting a single tattoo. Some major achievement, by the way, so I see it as a
moral responsibility to see this through to get this qualification, even if it
doesn't inspire a single other person, possibly my 12 year old. But that kind of
just depends on the way that the wind is blowing, and the irony of doing all of
this out of my kitchen has not escaped me. Maybe I can change a few perspectives in
the process. I am here and very loud. I'm going to ask all the questions and I'm
going, Stay to the end. I need to achieve this because of the woman before me who
sacrificed so much. It's ridiculous that I wasn't born onto an even playing field in
the 1970s, but I'm jumping every day as hard as I possibly can. These trailblazers
who busted their asses to get us the right to be able to vote democratically will be
shaking their heads. I think about Kate Sheppard and try and leap into the light
on every possible occasion. I want to show my kid that you can do anything when you
really want to. But first, I need to get this network stuff down. I woke up half
dreaming about protocol abbreviations last weekend, so I think I'm on the right
track. If you want to follow me on Twitter, my name is @diebestimmerin. I
can't believe that it wasn't taken but wasn't taken a few years ago when I
grabbed it, when Twitter wasn't as popular as it is now. So I post a lot of sarcastic
remarks about learning IT sang at home during corona. And as you can see, some of
the mind bending, dangling atrocities that I happened to come across. That's it for
me today. I want to give a shout out to my wonderful classmates who are watching.
Thank you for your support. You're great. And thanks everybody for sticking around.
Let me know if you have any questions. Cheers.
Herald: But then you do for the great talk. Is this comes less? Let's discuss
some further points and join us for the Q&A. It will be held in the awesome Ada
room at its. Zipes says this event stopped Hexham dot org slash awesome underscore
Ada dot HMO.
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